Holding on by the skin of my fingers, Video Performance, 7’53’, 2018.
In the video performance Holding On by the Skin of My Fingers, I reach up, grab the bar, and hold on for as long as I can. The bar cuts into my hands. The weight of my body strains against my grip. When the bell rings, I can let go and fall to the ground. Until then, I am fixated on holding on.
My grandmother uses a bell to call me when she needs assistance during the night. The anticipation of the bell inevitably ringing fills my thoughts, keeping me constantly attuned to the needs of the other. The anticipatory grief and the waiting that come with holding on are interrupted by the ringing of the bell. The bell’s ringing brings relief, yet I must get back up, holding on until it rings again.
Holding on by the skin of my fingers, Projection installation view, at Sydney Collage of the Arts, 2019.
Holding on by the skin of my fingers, installation view, at Obrat Gallery, Maribor, Slovenia 2024.